I’m not sure what’s going on, but the last few days, my motivation has waned badly. That overwhelming need to ditch it all and start over has returned, and though I am resisting, it is difficult.
In the past, this is when I would take a day off and just veg out, play video games, read, do something mindless to relax. Maybe go get some fast food to help with the inevitable body crash that seems to often accompany these moods.
My work has been subpar, my blood sugar low and my anger irrational and teeth-grinding.
Negativity surrounds me and I have no patience.
Perhaps it’s work stress. Perhaps it’s diet. Perhaps it’s lack of sleep.
Whatever it is, it’s slowly killing me, and days like these have cost me the better part of twenty-five years.
I’ve had enough.
I will push forward, but I need a solution, damn it. I can’t continue with this crap.