Month: May 2019

happiness

The Goal (Or Not)

What I’m searching for is bliss. Fully present, fully focused, live in it, grow in it, bliss. And not as an end goal, because that is a fallacy and a fool’s errand, not to mention unrealistic. I used to think, like most people, that happiness is an achievable place in time, an end point, a …

writing

Am I Generic?

I started reading David Eddings’ High Hunt today. I was a fan of Eddings as a child for his fantasy series, the Belgeriad and the Malloreon. My brother and I have talked about re-reading them, in order to see if my eldest niece, who is a great lover of fiction and fantasy, might like them. …

depression

The Disconnect

The problem with depression is that it kills the value of everything in your life. All the things that you value, that you enjoy, that mean something to you, whether it’s just entertainment or something deeper, like a life’s purpose or a favourite task, are robbed of their emotional content. Robbed of meaning. Of purpose. …

writing

Prophecy

It’s a staple of fantasy fiction everywhere. The prophecy that foretells of a pending doom and a particular person or person as the only chance to stop it and save the world/girl/country/human race/whatever. And I get it. It’s an impetus to push a character into a larger role, to put them in situations where conflict …

depression

Depression Identity

It’s easy to let the negative parts of your life become your identity. Addict. Victim. Crazy person. Bitch. Loser. Depressed. I do and have suffered from depression since I was in my pre-teens. Sometime around the time where what I was being told was good and right stopped lining up with what made sense or …

depression

Non-Conformity

I am a terrible non-conformist. I don’t mean that I’m an inveterate or incorrible non-conformist, though that’s what I’d really love to be, but rather, I’m bad at it. For all the punk rock on my iPod (yes, I still have one) and all my literary heroes coming primarily from either the counter-culture or genre …

business

Pathos

I have a hard time being pandered to. After years of working in technical support, where one is daily faced with an onslaught of frustrated people looking to get their problems solved, I’ve learned that all the things we teach customer service agents and other phone people is largely fluff. Our best years at the …