Month: July 2019

writing

Generic Storytelling

I saw an interesting quote from a writer whom I respect that said we, as writers, rarely get to write what we want to write. Often, we’re pushed into a corner or a section of the literary world where we’re required to fixate on a specific topic or follow a particular path and it’s up …

writing

Dead Endings

I just realized I have a massive tendency to kill off main characters for a finale. I did it in my novelette, Jeopardy, and subsequent comic adaptation (still forthcoming). I’ve planned it out for another incarnation of a western comic, plus at least three of my current book ideas end with the tragic death of …

depression

Final Drafts

Part of me just wants to hope beyond all hope. It feels like a hint of success, or just the completion of a few meaningful tasks and I can break away from all the anguish and hand-wringing and in-my-own-head bullshit. Part of it knows that it’s the association with this novel I’m writing that’s got …

writing

Worth It

I often wonder if things are worth the effort. Writing. Reading. Connecting with other people. Life itself, at times. Part of me does connect with others, but in a very passive way. For example, I sit here and write these words that no one reads (and maybe someday, should I reach a modicum of success) …

depression

Forty Two

It’s been an awfully long time since I’ve been this depressed. The last time was probably at that den of ego and incompetence I left to start the store, when I had to force myself not to swerve into oncoming traffic every day. I’d say after the store, but mostly there, I felt like a …

culture

Clever Pretense

I’ve never been a fan of pretension. I’ve never been someone who followed trends or got into stuff because that’s what the cool kids were into (wherever in the global pantheon of “coolness” you were trying to fit in – whether that’s mainstream or music snob or blogger mommy or whatever). That’s not to say …

depression

How I Want To Feel

You know, you’d think this was a simple question. You want to feel good. Happy. Blissful. Generally, the idea is to end up on the positive side of the ledger as far as emotions go. Lately, I’ve started to wonder about myself. I’ve heard of and know other people who identify with such completeness their …