Month: September 2019

reading

Requiem For A Doormat Reading List

I read a lot. Way too much, probably. Books, comics, television, movies, music – it doesn’t really matter, I love a good story, but books trump all. Well, maybe not comics. I read too many comics to list them all here, but I actually track books on Goodreads. I finish every book for one reason …

growth

Process And Expansion

I have a tendency to cripple myself by taking on too much. When I was young, I saw my genius spreading out like a spark in a void that fuels a new big bang, to eventually encompass all that is. Grandiose, sure, but that wasn’t hyperbole. I assumed that it was possible to actually convert …

writing

Submissions

Today is the day. I’ve spent a couple of weeks away from the whole “depression epic” that is Requiem For A Doormat and I feel that it’s time to send this puppy into the world. Like a parent dropping its child off at college (or perhaps more appropriately, leaving them at kindergarten), I’m leaving this …

growth

Cortisol

I got 80 in biology in grade 9. That sounds decent, but even though I may later have gotten worse marks in other things, I would label biology my worst subject. I could never have been a doctor or a vet. It’s not that viscera bothers me. I went weirdly serene when my daughter split …

business

Crossroads

I’m at a bit of a crossroads. On one hand, I’ve just finished what I believe to be a well-written novel that I hope to sell. On the other hand, I have a day job in a small company which is rife with repetitive issues, infighting and a myopic unwillingness to change. Having worked for …

growth

Perfect Imperfection

I’ll admit to struggling with this, but man, this is a powerful realization: imperfection is better than perfection. Maybe it’s our upbringing, looking up to a perfect god or the ideal man of politics or business or some fancy celebrity. Maybe it’s the self-help explosion of the last century or so. Maybe it’s always been …

writing

Dead Talker

Just under six months ago, I decided to take a run at exorcising a demon. Everyone’s heard the axiom, “write what you know”. Well, I took that to heart. I took it to heart so deeply, I had to ask what is the one thing I’m truly good at in this life? Is it pessimism? …

writing

Done

Well, almost done. One more read-through and this blessing, this pox upon me, upon my family, will be complete. Or complete enough to send out to every agent and publisher that might have an interest in such dark doings. After all, everyone wants to read a story about someone’s less-than-epic descent into depression and suicidal …