Tag: fear

writing

Dead Talker

This was a hard one. I’m always drawn toward the dark shit.  Not the viciously malevolent stuff, like the Manson Family or true crime serial killer stories, but the philosophically dark. From punk rock to V For Vendetta to zombie lore, I love it when things get dark.  It’s a great trait, I suppose, for …

blowoff

New Year’s Eve

Tonight begins another year.  Hopefully, this will be the year we see the end of Donald Trump as president and return to a sane world, but these things have a tendency to have to reach a breaking point before they turn.  Unfortunately, if humanity’s past is any indication, we can go pretty far before we …

fear

Invite Fear In

I’ll admit that I struggle with fear. The fear of rejection, of judgment, of discovering that I’m not what I think I am, of discovering that I’m the very dullard I oppose, that I’m a divisive human being, the gossiper, the seed sower of unhappiness and oppression, all this worries me to my very core. …

fear

Enthusiasm (And The Tendency To Curb It)

I don’t think there’s any better feeling in the world than getting totally engrossed in something. I mentioned before that I’m all about expanding worlds, mine and others, so when I find a new world with a rich history to delve through, whether it’s a book on Roman politics in the time of Nero or …

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Can I Hack It?

There’s a fear in me.  A fear that clots my blood and shakes my marrow. A fear that chases me at every turn, and that’s responsible for every failed project, every deleted manuscript and every unsent story.  It’s responsible for the concern that my friends and family will read what I’ve written and sneer, or …

writing

On Finishing Things

I have a bad habit. I don’t finish things that are for myself. Given a task at work, it’s done promptly and well.  If there’s housework to be done, if I know it needs to be done because my wife and daughter need clean laundry or people are stopping by for a visit, then it …

depression

Fear And Hate

I had intended to talk about the connection between fear and hate today, but I’m finding that all I have today is a blank stare. The world has worn me out. Trump’s new attempt at Hitler Youth with the Boy Scouts, alternating bouts of pandering and outrage over any number of socially irrelevant (or relevant …

politics

Fear As Primary Driver Of War

A few weeks back, I was reading Pretty Deadly by Kelly Sue Deconnick and Emma Rios and was struck by the notion in their second arc, that war occurs and gets ugly when it masters fear. That fear is ultimately the thing harnessed by war to drive its own homicidal intent. I think this is fairly …