Tag: frustration

awareness

Early Mornings

I like early mornings, sort of. I like the silence they bring, the quiet hour (or two, if I’m lucky) before the house starts to move and time for work happens. Sometimes, though, the early morning can go fuck itself. Like today. When I woke up at 3:30 to a dream of the police literally …

growth

Letting Go

It’s funny how we can spend so much time thinking about our self-awareness and be willfully ignorant of the things that bother us at the same time. I have a tendency to bottle things up.  I do.  I try to let go of little stuff.  People tell me I’m very calm and “chill”, but I …

blowoff

One Step Forward

And sadly, two back.  The whole day has been like that. For every inch of progress, two inches of interference.  It’s frustrating, but I recognize that there are always going to be days like this, just like some days, there will be days that go so easily and I get so much done that it …

blowoff

I Guess I’m Just Tired

Maybe it’s the overdoing it this weekend.  Maybe it’s the pressure of trying to finish a manuscript that I know isn’t really working (at least, the ending isn’t working). Maybe it’s natural depression. Whatever it is, it’s not working for me.  I’m not giving up yet, but I need to change something. The question is: …

writing

Down Days

I’m not real sure what’s going on this week.  I know I’m nearing the end of my self-imposed deadline for the pirate novel I’m writing, and sometimes, as you peak on a project, that can send you pretty far down.  I’m not as happy with the work as I should be, and I’m second-guessing all …

blowoff

Patience Tested

What a day. It started with a burst water supply line, apparently rotted from the inside out on our toilet, then a stuck shut-off which meant the water had to be turned off to the whole bathroom.  That led to an “unbalancing” of the new shower, a clogged shower head, zero water pressure and drastically …