Tag: growth

growth

Learning

I’m a stubborn prick. Not in a narcissistic, my-way-or-the-highway kind of way, but I have traditionally been a difficult student to teach, when I don’t want to learn. This may sound contradictory to the people who know me, because I can be such a “nice guy”. At times, I’m a coward about a lot of …

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Process And Expansion

I have a tendency to cripple myself by taking on too much. When I was young, I saw my genius spreading out like a spark in a void that fuels a new big bang, to eventually encompass all that is. Grandiose, sure, but that wasn’t hyperbole. I assumed that it was possible to actually convert …

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Cortisol

I got 80 in biology in grade 9. That sounds decent, but even though I may later have gotten worse marks in other things, I would label biology my worst subject. I could never have been a doctor or a vet. It’s not that viscera bothers me. I went weirdly serene when my daughter split …

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Perfect Imperfection

I’ll admit to struggling with this, but man, this is a powerful realization: imperfection is better than perfection. Maybe it’s our upbringing, looking up to a perfect god or the ideal man of politics or business or some fancy celebrity. Maybe it’s the self-help explosion of the last century or so. Maybe it’s always been …

writing

Dead Talker

Just under six months ago, I decided to take a run at exorcising a demon. Everyone’s heard the axiom, “write what you know”. Well, I took that to heart. I took it to heart so deeply, I had to ask what is the one thing I’m truly good at in this life? Is it pessimism? …

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Chronic

I used to lie all the time. Like most male idiots, I embellished my sex life, my prowess, my intelligence and my general level of overall cool. Ten years of hard lessons has taught me that’s a terrible fucking idea. I used to have difficulty owning up to my mistakes. It’s still an unfortunate first …

writing

Things I Have Learned

I’m almost done with this manuscript. Last minute changes, editing commas and the like, it’s tedious, but not overtly taxing. It’s allowed me some time to reflect on things I’ve learned in the process of writing this puppy, and not just that I have a tendency to use unnecessary commas (see last comma). I started …

depression

How I Want To Feel

You know, you’d think this was a simple question. You want to feel good. Happy. Blissful. Generally, the idea is to end up on the positive side of the ledger as far as emotions go. Lately, I’ve started to wonder about myself. I’ve heard of and know other people who identify with such completeness their …

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You’ve Got To Be In It

I was reading Thomas Sterner’s follow-up to a personal favourite of mine, The Practicing Mind, purported to be the more practical edition, and I came across an idea that stuck with me. The story centred around a golfer who had a tendency to self-destruct if she put too much pressure on herself. She spiralled into …