Tag: growth

writing

Things I Have Learned

I’m almost done with this manuscript. Last minute changes, editing commas and the like, it’s tedious, but not overtly taxing. It’s allowed me some time to reflect on things I’ve learned in the process of writing this puppy, and not just that I have a tendency to use unnecessary commas (see last comma). I started …

depression

How I Want To Feel

You know, you’d think this was a simple question. You want to feel good. Happy. Blissful. Generally, the idea is to end up on the positive side of the ledger as far as emotions go. Lately, I’ve started to wonder about myself. I’ve heard of and know other people who identify with such completeness their …

growth

You’ve Got To Be In It

I was reading Thomas Sterner’s follow-up to a personal favourite of mine, The Practicing Mind, purported to be the more practical edition, and I came across an idea that stuck with me. The story centred around a golfer who had a tendency to self-destruct if she put too much pressure on herself. She spiralled into …

depression

100 Days

I started writing this book a hundred days. A hundred days ago, I just wanted to write a book on depression, metaphorically represented by the dead people our hero (?) talks to, in an attempt to exorcise that same depression from my life. For that, I will not claim success. I mean, there’s lots of …

growth, Uncategorized

Getting Back On Track

It’s been a learning process these past few weeks. I’ve tried to live with a sort of internal guidance program that focuses on a few key things in order to stay on track. Play with presence, with focus, with a heavy bent toward growth of any kind, combined with a strong desire for absolute freedom …

happiness

Bliss

It’s always been my belief that there is only one actual driver of human behaviour, although it manifests in a myriad of different sub-motivations. I believe that every human action is driven by the desire to reach a state of total bliss. From sex to suicide, from the pursuit of power and the power of …

culture, Uncategorized

Accept / Reject

I’ve been thinking a lot about determination and reactionism, if that’s a word. I think we’re all pretty aware of how history tends to repeat itself within families and culture. The abusive, alcoholic parent whose children also end up abusive drunks, that sort of thing. In a less grim vein, think of the woman who …

happiness

The Goal (Or Not)

What I’m searching for is bliss. Fully present, fully focused, live in it, grow in it, bliss. And not as an end goal, because that is a fallacy and a fool’s errand, not to mention unrealistic. I used to think, like most people, that happiness is an achievable place in time, an end point, a …