Tag: growth

growth

Acceptance

When I accept, I can change. That’s the old mantra.  The worst part about mantras like this is that they become trite.  They get disconnected from their meaning.  They become words, detached from experience in spite of their relative truth. We don’t change what we refuse to accept about ourselves.  That is true.  If I …

depression

Penultimate Exorcism

As I finish the last touches on the final draft of Dead Talker, and get it ready to prep for a final manuscript tomorrow to be sent out, I have to wonder. How far did this go in exorcising a few demons? Was it an exercise in wallowing, or did it help me face the …

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Below The Surface

In keeping with yesterday’s theme of not knowing truly the state of one’s own enlightenment, I suffered from a burst of irrational anger this morning. Forced to go back and question it, I realize that there are so many practical, down-to-earth upgrades needed in my life, that I can barely fathom it. I’ve been reading …

growth

Where We Are On The Path

Growth is a weird thing.  So critical to our happiness, but so difficult to understand. Our society focuses so much on goals and targets and objectives and ranking and levels that it becomes difficult to see that there really is no end but the end, if you know what I mean. We don’t reach a certain point …

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Happy New Year

2017 was a fucked-up year. Not only did it bring us a fresh rise of fascism and white nationalism, it witnessed a rebirth of people who actually uphold the real values the American forefathers intended to instill in the world. For me, personally, it was a difficult year to start, but in July, I made …

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Lowered Expectations

There’s a motto I’ve used in the past that seems like pretty good advice for me. Aim high, expect nothing. I used to think in universal terms, that I would someday stumble upon the secret to life, the universe and everything (apologies to Douglas Adams for not using the 42 reference) and that it would …

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Practice

Everything is practice. Everything we do is to improve or maintain our skill level at whatever it is we’re doing.  Whether it’s a trade, a sport, a hobby or a mental faculty, every time we do something, we are practicing. That, of course, says nothing of the quality of that practice. If you’re practicing accuracy …

connection

Nieces

Today is my youngest niece’s tenth birthday. It’s weird to me to think back on that pink, squirming little human that got shoved in my inexpert arms so many years ago.  I was afraid to touch her, and despite intellectually knowing she was family, it never occurred to me at the time that she was …

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Letting Go

It’s funny how we can spend so much time thinking about our self-awareness and be willfully ignorant of the things that bother us at the same time. I have a tendency to bottle things up.  I do.  I try to let go of little stuff.  People tell me I’m very calm and “chill”, but I …

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Attention Versus Awareness

I feel like these are two are halves of the same coin, although that would imply opposites when it’s almost more symbiotic. Attention is more focused than awareness.  Attention hones in on a single item. A conversation. A project. A favourite television show. Awareness is more general and less specific. It’s the sense of space …