Tag: hypocrisy

depression

They Told Me I Didn’t Understand

Some things happen divorced of time and space. I have a memory, of which I cannot place the date or location, or even my age, beyond it being likely in my early twenties.  There was alcohol involved, but I was not yet drunk (or maybe I was, I don’t know). Two friends of mine at …

fear

Can I Hack It?

There’s a fear in me.  A fear that clots my blood and shakes my marrow. A fear that chases me at every turn, and that’s responsible for every failed project, every deleted manuscript and every unsent story.  It’s responsible for the concern that my friends and family will read what I’ve written and sneer, or …

religion

Christian Morality

What does this even mean anymore? I mean, it seems to mean whatever anyone wants it to mean, so long as they claim to love God and go to church on Sunday. Even beyond the obvious contradictions in morality in the Bible itself (within individual books, and not even counting the massive philosophical differences between …

personal development

Prediction Or Hindsight

I’ve read a lot of self-help books.  Some are better than others, but one thing most of them have in common is that they tend to tout the achievements of their past as the indicators of their essential guruhood. Some just give a simple statement of credentials.  Others repeatedly drill the lessons they learned from …

culture

Negativity Versus Positivity

I have a problem with negativity.  I know it.  I tend to play devil’s advocate with everything, from other people’s behaviour to my own skillset. I’ve tried recently to spin that, to play devil’s advocate with my own negativity, and though I still lapse into deep brood or angry dejection from time to time, it’s …

communication

Silence Versus Surplus

Apparently, I talk a lot when I’m drunk. At least, that’s what my sister tells me.  I call it my post-lubrication self, when all the thoughts that I wisely (or repressingly?) censor during the day come out. I rarely regret saying them, but much of the time it’s nonsense.  Nonsense that makes me laugh or …